The GODDESS service carries 68+ numbered ACCOUNTS_* variables, which is a pattern of storing data payloads in environment variables rather than using them for configuration and secrets. When the environment grows this large, staged-changes applies are killed because the total variable payload exceeds an internal size ceiling, which is why your "Applying 20 changes" never finishes. The earlier stuck apply will settle on its own within a few hours, and the 20 pending deletions you see now are your current staged set ready to try again, but retrying will hit the same wall until the environment shrinks. The fix is to remove the bulk ACCOUNTS_* variables and move that data into a connected repo, a published image, a volume, or an object-storage bucket fetched at runtime.